▶ play I give it up All the things that made me crazy I lock it down All the dreams that i've been chasing I make it up I don't have a real contention anymore I suck it down No i don't want to be remembered as a whore But my rebellion's null No I don't plan to get away But that won't stop me from complaining I just lie Yes anything to keep on playing I fake it all Chase the things I publicly ignore I double down And in my mind I'm still the same I was before But my rebellion's null ...yeah yeah yeah... Yeah my rebellion's null ...yeah yeah yeah... My rebellion's null ...yeah yeah yeah... Rebellion's null ...yeah yeah... Null I make a noise Like I still have something "rebel" going on I make it loud Make it sound like I've been fearless all along But all along I'm as coward as they come I'm as average as they come Hypochondriac and dull No my rebellion's null ...yeah yeah yeah... Rebellion's null ...yeah yeah yeah... My rebellion's null ...yeah yeah yeah...no one needs ya Rebellion's null ...yeah yeah yeah... no one needs ya Rebellion Rebellion Rebellion's null I lock the door No needs to see me like this on their feed And truth be told 2020 was exactly what I need Just stay at home Be as boring as they come Be as harmless as they come Staring aimless at the wall Yeah my rebellion's null Null Null Null Null Null Null color it blue and throw it in the ocean Null Null Null Rebellion Null

▶ play I fight for my freedom to put me in a box I root for rebellion puts me in a box My wonderful theories all put me in a box Then offer protection that puts me in a box Puts me in a box My fight for inclusion will put me in the box For my mighty resistance is funded by the box My function is fiction, I'm leeching on the box Yeah I could be hero, hero of the box Be the heart in the kick of the war drum I just want to dominate Yeah the truth is I just want to dominate But the truth is I'm just like you Drowning in lies Faking our lives Breaking each other Hating one another Looking from the inside Down on the inside Looking at the mirror FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR My shout and my whisper puts me in a box Disgust that I tolerate puts me in a box The fight I believed The signs have been seeking The lies I believed in Have turned to Political monsters chase me down the box I got terrified of what's on the other side And I'm terrified of what's on the other side Drowning in lies Faking our lives Breaking each other Hating one another Looking from the inside Down on the inside Looking at the mirror FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR FUCK THAT FUCKING MIRROR

▶ play it begins with fear what from unclear a retreat to fall into the normal and it takes its time and a piece of mind and a piece of soul into the normal i lost my vision in an attempt to be at peace with too much west coast depravity everything is known nothing is mysterious just the occasional jinx no nothing is mysterious i swear i can begin to believe i can't do it no more i was someone else and now it doesn't exist anymore that's not who you are, fool that's not who you are, fool that's not who you are, fool and this is life now bite it's the after taste better find a place better find the time to resist decline back to the middle back to square one there's nothing here it's all been cleared a default install of the normal a hopeful glimpse at a plan to mean something and a shameful crawl into the normal sign here now thank you good job it's pay to play you knew what you got into disarm and fade away obey that's all that you are now the thing that I'm becoming stares back at me and all this time locked into silence now I attempt to be my mouth is open nothing comes out of me a silent shadow standi I learned to shut my mouth and blend an inverse of god damn none of this bullshit matters to me day in day out hoping to emerge from fear of the consequences i put myself in if i speak my mind it's an interim state and it's taking so god damn long passing time and hoping something will emerge from nothing and a paralizing fear to wake the guardians of order in the land brave you run for cover and get saved it's all about being exactly like advertized the war machine never stop pressing down on the nature of reality you know you're wrong, you know they're wrong, you know it's wrong it's wrong it's wrong it's all around it doesn't matter, number somewhere marked as possibly a problem or possibly a network glitch i wish i could believe that right now, i wish i could believe in anything when chaos comes around, I am just standing there as empty as i ever felt or less

▶ play I made a version of my life it went bankrupt I made a u-turn in my life and turned the lights out and it's been eating me it's been feeding me it's been paying for a lifestyle I can't learn to enjoy and what do you think the options are today? it's not like anyone will care, anyway what do you think is left of what I was I'm not so sure if anyone still want to know how many years I have to live this way? ungrateful they give me anything I want, and then some and it's not like I have something better, but it's been killing me it's been healing me it's been sneaking in the lifestyle that I used to despise and honestly I've got nothing to say and if I did no one would care, anyway there's nothing really different in my mind my complains sound just like any other's life how many years I have to live this way? ungrateful take it away I'm full of pain and all the best this life can offer I'm full of rage thank god it's keeping me in check give it back so fucking lame i'm just another of those failed musicians make my name in tech no thank you you fucking wait and watch the world become my oyster just fucking wait and watch me sell it all again so fucking lame but this is all that I've been trained to aim for search for better days how many years i have to live this way? October 2019

▶ play a little segway another passing day don't try to be brave just try to behave i do what's needed but this is where it ends i don't really care i'm not really there and when i'm alone i'm hearing the song you never belong you're never alone i dream of horrors but i don't want to wake it feels so raw it feels like home it's like i'm alone to see through it all to change in this world to matter at all san francisco tel aviv i'm an alien where i breathe

▶ play god hush, don't tell me your plan i know it will play too different to say i know more if i am completely off and left in seclusion completely ignored i know more but what does it matter? why should i care? if I was a prophet in their eyes it makes me complacent it carries a shame let it go hold on hush don't deliver it don't be right, don't be here i don't want these lies don't believe in it who cares why this is happening hold on hush, who am I I don't earn my trust I don't know what it means to be here in all of the mess i see within providence signs hush, filling up the void you want me to follow you so terribly far i don't know what it could mean to you but it means the world to me to say it out loud it's all wrong and what of the songs they bring need they be heard? i don't know hold on hush, don't answer it no, don't rush, don't begin i don't want no light no one needs it to stop tonight nothing in it so hold on hush, all the reasons can wait till i no longer need to hold on to what it could mean i don't think i can pull through denying it tangled entangled entangling

▶ play weekend weekday sitting in my backyard sipping on a bottle of beer 1, 2, 3, 10 this is nothing it's the best time ever most boring pandemic it's the boredom pandemic this is all i know just bitching in my backyard pick another bottle of beer 1, 2, 3 say did you hear about the numbers holy shit they're going up up up up shit will never end you gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta be gotta be gotta be shitting me gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta be gotta be gotta be shitting me work from home i'm living in my backyard right along my bottles of beer 1, 2, 3 kegs this is nothing this is only the beginning gotta be prepared for the culling of the heard gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta be prepared for the looting and the shooting gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta be gotta be gotta be shitting me global affairs from the comfort of my backyard talking to a bottle of beer 1, 2, 3, test think i got it it's the left it'a the trans it's the china it's the trump it's the russians it's the russians gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta be gotta be gotta be gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta gotta be gotta be gotta believe me

▶ play sometimes i hear the most outrageous bullshit sold to me as real for real i don't know how it got to be this easy doesn't matter if you know what you're saying no one cares no one checks no one's there no one gives a shit sometimes i feel like a conspiratory finger in our ear is here deliver propaganda psudeo science why are you so dumb and why so blind with so many years in uni and so many years in research is there so much money to be made of lies in your dirty little corner you're not getting an exemption you turn our soul into a brain and let our time here run in vain it makes us good the more we're sane it opens up and lets us in we are the void behind your fear we play pretend there's nothing here it makes us good to nod and cheer we just don't matter sometimes i see it, the way we stray away to make things more convinient so deep in denial denial listen buddy i'm not buying what you're selling i don't care for the happiness you give me with a shakle sometimes i see them, so smug and sure they've got the world beneath their finger they linger they breathe the clapping hands of echo minds stare in awe into a big black hole pray to god that a god will emerge in software show us the way show us the way we turned our soul into a brain and let our body be our chain it makes us good the more we shame cause god loves suffering and pain repeating what we wanna hear it's all recorded all is clear it makes us good to be sincere and call you bigot you turn our soul into a brain and let our time here run in vain it makes us good the more we're sane it opens up and lets us in we are the void behind your fear we play pretend there's nothing here it makes us good to nod and cheer we just don't matter

▶ play I was busy Taking care of things As they were passing their agenda I was busy I was too busy But this isn't my religion It isn't me they satisfy As my shadow fights for survival All i see is failure Don't try to make things better You don't know your left from right I was busy, i was too busy Now my god what a mess i'm at This isn't my religion Inverse invested in what i have As my shadow reclaims dominion My shadow Is my dominion Don't play the songs that sound Like everything is great I need to hear the silence So it's backlash would grow Back into the feedback of my religion As chaos and heaven force collide I'm too busy, far far too busy Igniting the voice inside This is my religion This is my call to arms A never ending crisis Get busy one more time Gotta give in Gotta give in some

▶ play I'm not the lizard that you thought Helpless and green and running to the shadows So sick and tired of these gropes The me you know and love has just retired venom in me Time to let you free Open up my mouth Let you figure it out I know you I've been watching you Up close and I've been counting the days So what if this is how you want it I'm not this low Time to break out of this cocoon Don't look surprised like this should last forever I don't believe in all your rules Could see it coming if it wasn't for Arrogance self deceit Time to set me free Open up my mouth Let you figure it out I know you I've been watching you Up yours i know now what it meant I'm not this low So what if you think you're above it cutting out the pieces made you feel like you believe you are forgiven oh no pulling back the vision see you want to push me back down to your level of control I'm not this low

▶ play and if it ends today who knows how long we'll still be keeping fear and distance from all the world out there the things we used to plan for don't seem to make much sense as beggars come to beg this used to be my herd and now we're all in, summon your role, we're all in all in, calling your soul, you're all in and if i had a choice deciding what was true i wouldn't know what's better don't think I ever would cuz even I profit if i'm on top today the traumas of tomorrow are coming anyway as now we're all in, summon your role, we're all in all in, calling your soul, you're all in even if i listen to the wind i can't pick up what it's saying what is this for did we get something we wanted fucking up our world so long go on burn on

▶ play without faith without god i find it unheard of to fight off this fear in the future everything i used to be braver surrounded by danger and now that i'm older i'm haunted by order what is this truth that i betray? why is it always far and vague? without faith without god without spell i find them unheard of so vacant from my world they're gone they left me hysteric and alone without a story what is this truth that i betray? why is it always far and vague? why must all this chaos lead to mediocrity and so much little hope and so much fear what am i still doing here at all

▶ play Little child of empire wants to leave your mark on the world You find your gladiators on the other side of the world They die for you, yeah So can you have someone to hate They kill for you, far away In your colony in your arena In a song you said protection takes the force of the blow Now you stand back in your polis Well protected Rooting for them From the comfort Of your top seat Celebrating Celebrating This is your hand This is your plan This is your entertainment All for you They die for you They kill for you They fight for you They butcher for you They bleed for you Behead for you They burn for you They pray for you Why can't you leave them alone? Cuz you don't have a dog in this fight No you don't know what it's about Yet You're Luring them with a sacrificial pipedream hell That you call hope What have they ever done to you To wish them suicide by cop Your wars are never over Your wars are never over Your games are never over The games are never over Little child of fashion Born of latest trends You find your gladiators And send them to their end They die for you, yeah So you could have a symbol to wear They kill for you everyday In the colonies In your arena Thumb down...down...down...down...down... Die for you, in your arena Thumb down...down...down...down...down... Die for you, in your arena Die for you Kill for you Fight for you Bleed for you Hurt for you Burn for you Rape for you It's all for you it's all for you